Sunday, January 31, 2016

Adopt together...


Hey friends... we have been so incredibly blessed and really blown away by each and every one of our adoptions...

And the journey to sweet Kaliyah has been no different.  I feel like I need to pinch myself everyday... She is actually ours... forever a part of our family! She is such an amazing gift...

When we first started talking about adopting again, this time in Illinois... The paperwork, cost, wait, and process were a little overwhelming and daunting...

But after much prayer we thought, "Let's open that door and see if that is God's will for us..."
And here we sit staring at the answer to SO MANY PRAYERS!!!   

I can't even tell you, how precious it is to be staring it in the face... the answer to all of those prayers!!! 

Our sweet friends that housed us in AZ from day 1 to day 36:) (still can't believe it took that long:)  created this adopt together page for us...

We are so grateful for you being along on this journey with us... but especially for your prayers and encouragement along the way...
MUCH LOVE to you all!






Tuesday, January 26, 2016

God sweet confirmations...

 If my sweet friend Linny was still doing her Memorial Box Monday stories... this, while so small and direct, would definitely be one to share...

Some of us may at times think that God only cares or works in the Big things... that he doesn't involve himself or care about the little things that happen daily in our lives...

But this my friends, shows me again of my God's faithfulness, His great love and care for us, how He is always working behind the scenes,  how He ALWAYS sees the big picture, and How He is carefully planting seeds along our path that we can draw upon when needed:)  He is so good like that...

So many of you might recall that when our sweet Birth mom changed her mind on Christmas Day and I was down on my knees praying in the bedroom...

This is what I wrote when I was praying while the case worker was indeed getting confirmation that our birth mom felt she now should keep Kaliyah... Here are my words...

Truly, I was praying that His will be done and I was repeatedly telling Him that I trusted Him... I also recalled the words of my wise friend Linny, "Praise Him ahead of time for what He will do!"  I wasn't claiming to know that she would still place her with us, but I was praising Him for what He was going to do regardless of if it was going to be in line with the desires of my heart or not... I was on my knees in my bedroom earnestly praying...

I knew that our friend, the caseworker was just in the other room talking with the birth mom... basically she was asking what her plans were, and when she confirmed that she was thinking that she was going to have to keep her,
 the caseworker pretty much said, that if she was intending on parenting or was wavering at all that she and her daughter had to go back to her apartment, that there were too many hearts that were getting attached to this baby and it wasn't fair to make it any worse.  Our birth mom  went to one of the back bedrooms to pray and decide if she would take the baby with her now when she went back to her hotel or if we would arrange for cradle care till she was sure on her decision to parent... but the baby would not be staying here with us...


 You can go back and read http://www.hintzshappenings.blogspot.com/2015/12/she-is-gods-little-girl-first.html "She is God's girl part 1 that I posted while I was in Arizona to read all that happened that day...


Fast forward to this week when I returned home... I was up in my bedroom full of duffel bags (Greg hadn't unpacked any of the bags from 3 weeks ago and with a family of 10... let me just say unpacking takes a llloooonnnnngggg time... ) I was  trying to get started on unpacking... I had piles of things that were left undone from before we left for Arizona... and there on the floor, in the midst of my crazy messy bedroom, when I look over was this tiny sheet of torn paper... that said... 





I honestly have no idea when I wrote it down or what prompted me to... But immediately when I saw it I remembered those words of my friend Linny, as well as the words I was pouring out to the Lord when in my gut I knew that our birth mom was changing her mind and deciding to parent the baby we had just driven all the way across the country to adopt... At the same time knowing she was fully the Lords and not mine or ours to claim... 

But what a sweet reminder of the Lord to place that little sheet of paper I don't even remember ever writing right in the middle of my day...
 in the middle of my disastrous messy bedroom...
 in the middle of my crazy busy days...
 in the middle of a heart of thankfulness to our Faithful God...

He cares about it all!  Nothing is too big or too small...
Don't ever think that something you are going through doesn't matter to HIM...
Don't ever think he doesn't care about the small details of your day...

He cares for you... and the BIG MOMENTOUS decisions you are needing to make...
He cares for you... and The BIG MOUNTAINS that you are facing...
He cares for you... and the BIG ILLNESSES you or your loved ones are dealing with daily...
He cares for you... and the HUGE HURTS you are feeling in your heart...
He cares for you... and the HARD RELATIONSHIPS you need to navigate...

and He even cares for you... and the tiny things you face through out your day...
and He even cares for you... and the small prayers you whisper as you go about your day...
and He even cares for you... and the little bumps that come up as you walk out your day...

He loves you... He cares for you... He walks through it all with you... 
What love He has for you... He would have sent his son Jesus... just for you... 

Hard to comprehend... but so true... 

All of this reminds me of our sweet birthmom who I know is still hurting... Will you please continue to pray for her?  Thanks so much!





Thursday, January 21, 2016

What family...


Who would welcome your family with open arms night after night for well over a month...
What teenagers would give up their beds and bedrooms for almost 5 weeks...
Who would share their home with your family of ten and could literally make it feel like home...
What wife would cook day after day for a crew of 19 without complaint...
What family would turn their holidays upside down to allow a birth mom, her older child, and your      whole crew share in a one of a kind Christmas Eve and Day...
What family would cry and pray with you as your longed for adoption fell apart right before Christmas dinner...
What family would put up with sharing their beds, bathroom, bikes, Lego's, etc. for an unlimited unknown amount of time...
What family would cart you all over town picking up medical records, carting around your birth mom...
What family would put up a newborns cries in the middle of the night...
What family would love you and your crew like family...

This family... that is who...




Seriously, before we came many asked where we would be staying out here...
When I mentioned that we were staying with friends, almost every single person asked for how long we would stay with them.  Even ahead of time I knew that I would probably need to stay on longer than the rest of the family and I made it clear that when the time came that we had stayed long enough that I was more than willing to get a hotel if need be... They assured me... No way!!! 

Not one of us ever dreamt that we would be here for 5 weeks.  Not one of us dreamt that our paperwork would take this long to clear all three states... 

But even more importantly...Not one of us probably thought that being together for this long would go soooooo incredibly smoothly... 

They so joyfully shared their home with all of us, except Greg, for 2 weeks.  And again so sacrificially allowed Anna, Jojo, Kaliyah and me to stay for 3 more weeks.  

And to be honest as much as I want to get back to my home and the rest of my family... I honestly am sad... It has been such a special time...

We have all said it has TOTALLY been a GOD thing...

Seriously, after 5 weeks of being together... the kids did not have one disagreement with one another... They have had a blast and have enjoyed every bit of their time together... It has been so sweet to watch them together... 

After 5 weeks of sharing the kitchen, meals, bathrooms, laundry rooms, my dear friend Kimmey Sue and I have not gotten tired of one another.  It has been a total joy... It has been such a special time... While I longed for our paper work to get done more quickly... being here in their home with their 7 beautiful children was a absolutely a delight.  It has been fun and such a gift to actually spend so much time with them.  

I know having others in your home, especially for an indefinite amount of time can't be the easiest... But not once did she and her husband Bruce or the kids make me or the kids feel like a Burden,  like they were tired of us, or like we should be gone any sooner than we will be... 

We have laughed that our time together sweating in the African sun on missions trips wiping snotty nosed kids and holding orphans with soaked through diapers prepared us for this extended time together... we have lived with each other... 

And so we leave late tomorrow night to get back to life as it should be for both of our families... 

But we leave with somewhat sad hearts, but especially extremely grateful hearts... 
Grateful for great friends...
Grateful for God totally paving the way for the last 5 weeks to be such a special time...
Grateful for God working behind the scenes to use these friends as a special part of our journey to Kaliyah... 

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Longing...

Tomorrow will be a month that we have been here in Arizona staying with friends...
In just a few days it will be 5 weeks since I have left my home...

We have been blessed while we have been here to be able to worship on Sundays at a great church, preaching right now from the book of Judges (I remember that being a previous favorite sermon series at our church before we left for the seminary)  This has been no different.... so good!

This past Sunday I was over come...
Over come with emotion over so many things...

This past week I think I knew of 4 people close to me that were experiencing the death of loved ones... My heart was breaking for these people who were experiencing great loss...

A friend of mine finding out about the death of her grand baby... a baby her daughter delivered today still... (my heart breaking for this sweet mama who is just embarking on a grief journey I know all too well)

My Oklahoma mother, my kids Oklahoma grandma, who was a lifeline to me in my days of grief after Samuel died... I will never forget going to her home for the first time in Oklahoma, I had heard of her, but never had met her... She is one of the most hospitable people I have ever met... She welcomed me with open arms and that first night told me of her daughter that had passed away years before just a few months after her daughter's own wedding... (A bond was immediately formed and greatly strengthened over the months that passed) I remember helping her move out of that house, and how carefully her daughters beautiful wedding dress was still packaged up...
Just last week she lost another daughter... Burying more than one child... a grief so hard to bear... I can hardly imagine... my heart hurts for her...

Stories of lives that seemed to be cut short... yet lives that God knew the exact number of days even before time began...

My sweet precious Samuel... not long after his spirit left the warmth of my womb and went right to his Heavenly home... the first face he ever saw was the face of His heavenly father...


Oh dear Elisha, one of the gems at The Gem Foundation in Africa... A smile that just lit up the room... He knew how loved and precious he was... He passed away just a few days after celebrating the wedding of the orphanage founder while she was on her honeymoon... Sweet Elisha with the broken body... now made perfectly whole... no more wheelchair needed in Heaven for this beautiful boy...


My sweet niece Ella and her Grandpa... my sister in Love's dad who in one short week will be gone for a whole year... He too had been paralyzed the last few years of his life... I can just picture him running and jumping around Heaven... I know how hard those anniversary days can be... 



As we were worshiping on Sunday... singing...

Jesus Paid it all, 
All to HIM I owe,
Sin had left a crimson stain, 
He washed it white as snow.

O Praise the one who paid my debt, 
And raised this life up from the dead...

Immediately my heart was filled with an undeniable longing for Heaven... I must admit, of course my longing for Heaven has increased greatly since Samuel died... But on Sunday it was literally at my fingertips... I was filled with a literal ache for my heavenly home... 

This life is filled with so many beautiful things... yet so much trouble, stress, loss... and at times great sorrow... We hurt big because we love BIG!  

I was once again at a loss for the amazing work of Jesus on the cross for me... a miserable sinner... 

I do...
I owe it all to HIM...
My sin, your sin, my kids sin, my husbands sin... all leaving a terrible crimson, blood red stain...
Yet, He washes us white as snow... His red blood shed to make us white as snow... he removes those sins as far as the east is from the west... 

And then... He makes Heaven possible... for you and me one day... 

Already for my son Samuel... for Elisha ... for Deena's 2 daughters, for Katy's dad, for that precious little baby boy born still just tonight... 

They are already there in glory... Right now... With perfect bodies... experiencing the fullness of the Lord... right before their very eyes... 

Oh the hope of heaven... I can not tell you the peace and joy it brings to my heart... When I look around and see the hurt, and as I hurt with people... my heart cries... how much longer Lord?  Come now Jesus... Come quickly...

And then I am reminded simply that He knows the perfect time... I can fully trust in His goodness amidst all the hard things to know He already knows when that time will be and in the mean time...

He is stronger... 
He wants to carry those burdens... 
He wants us to lay them down...

He wants us to fully embrace this life...
He wants us to live in light of eternity...

What a gift it is... a free gift... one that won't ever get old for me...

 I owe Him big time, yet it is debt I could never repay... 

Couldn't ever come close to repaying... 

And he doesn't even want us to try... 







Sunday, January 17, 2016

Sibling love

Best Arizona helpers Ever... Jojo and Anna!  
They have loved having extra time with friends... but in all honestly they have been a huge help!
They are more than willing to feed, diaper, and hold sweet little Kaliyah!



And she seems pretty dog gone comfortable with them too:) 


I know that there are 5 more siblings at home in Illinois, that can't wait to get their hands back on Kaliyah... 

I was 100% planning on staying on here in AZ, just Kaliyah and I, and it was almost as if God just whispered, "Think about keeping Jojo and Anna here too."  It has been such a blessing and gift to my heart to have them here too.  I think it has helped me in not being overly homesick.  

We have been able to completely keep up with our homeschooling, they have been a big help with some household chores, and it has just been fun to have them here with me.  

So thankful for all three of these kids that I get to spend these special days with. 




Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Day by day...

UPDATE as of 1:30 mountain time today...

I am on my way to the medical records office in Phoenix for full medicals requested by Alabama... The Adoption agency director is REALLY going to bat for us to get Alabama to push it through today and then AZ to push it through possibly today... With the upcoming holiday this would be a HUGE  BLESSING... We are so grateful to her!   This is going to take a miracle since it has taken us this long to not even get through the first state yet... But God's knows and He is in control... :)

Original post:
As the days tick by... Some of us here in AZ awaiting the clearance of our interstate adoption paperwork to clear and some of us waiting 1800 miles away in IL., there are  lots of things happening for the 7 of the Hintzes back at home in Chilly Illinois...

Dad Getting little guys and hopie ready for school each day... 
High school boys taking care of preschool boys after school (They are such great brothers!)...
Snowy walks to church... 


Facetiming with mom, Anna, Jojo, and Kaliyah...




And on our end in sunny Arizona there is a lot happening for the 4 of us:)

Day trips to Sedona to catch a glimpse of God's beautiful creation... (The friends we are staying with had a job 20 minutes from Sedona, so we tagged along)
Long walks with toddlers...
School work with Anna and Jojo (YAY... Science is mostly completed for the year... all of our book science is done... now just observations and projects!!!)

Lots of snuggle time with precious baby Kaliyah:)


Sweet get together with precious friends...



We are so thankful that even though we left our house 3 1/2 weeks ago and have been separated for a lot of that time... God is blessing us all with sweet times and lots of memories being made!  

So here is the ICPC status... 

Basically tomorrow starts day 1... Yep, you read that right DAY 1!!! Even though we are post relinquishment by 17 days, it is still day 1... 

 God willing our packet will be sitting on the ICPC Alabama desk tomorrow sometime.  God willing she will pass it through maybe tomorrow or shortly there after...  We have found Alabama to be not so easy to get through... We had new affidavits that needed to be written up, signed and notarized, that will go from the Alabama lawyer (who knew we would need an Alabama lawyer????) and be in ICPC  possession tomorrow morning! 

With the ways things have gone there are any number of things that could happen.  There was even one mention of a family that had to take the baby back to the state of the birth mother before they could clear that state.  OH GOODNESS, Please pray she is gracious, (that she won't make us do that and) that she will find all the paperwork needed right in front of her, and that she will pass us through that state asap.  

Then we need to clear Arizona... We are HOPING  by Friday... 
Then we need to clear Illinois...  God willing that happens by next Wednesday... This is all BEST case scenario... :)

As always we know that it could happen that we are cleared mid next week... 

AND then again, it very well might not happen...

 Please continue to pray that God moves any mountains in the way... Pray for safety and protection of Greg and the kids back home and then for us here...  And pray for patience that we all can just take it all in stride...

WE KNOW THAT NONE OF THIS TAKES  THE LORD BY SURPRISE... He knows the exact time that we will get clearance.   It will all be in HIS perfect timing:) 

Friday, January 8, 2016

Why MEND exists...

This is a text I received yesterday morning... Our monthly MEND infant loss support group meeting was the night before and I wasn't able to lead due to still being in Arizona.  I am so grateful for the ladies that assist me and help these hurting families along side of me... It means so very much to me... I have a passion for MEND because it was a lifeline to me after Samuel died...not all of these ladies experienced MEND for themselves after their own losses but have so graciously allowed God to use the deepest pain of thier hearts to minister to others...here is the text... It was from a gal who delivered her still born son a week ago and was at MEND for the first time...

 I didn't share this with you last evening but as ------- was leaving she thanked me and said how good this was for her to come. She asked if she could hug me. Her parting words were "I don't like the club but I have really enjoyed the people. Thanks for letting me see past a few weeks, to a few years and more"..... I think that sums up what or who we are, what we hope to offer. Thought you would enjoy this.

Oh yes, can I relate to that... I remember my first MEND meeting 3 weeks after the still birth of Samuel at 40 full weeks.  I remember feeling like I would never survive this and there they were... ladies 6 months out,  1 year out,  4 years out from their loss. There they were still remembering that precious child, yet very much alive and even thriving after a devastating loss.  It gave me HOPE!! 

This is a gift to me... To know that God doesn't waste our pain... He uses it ALL  when we let him... Thank you Jesus for using and bringing something beautiful from the broken places of our lives...